Rosie's Puddin' & Pie

Good morning my husband Oh, you're not there I see a blinking phone light, I guess I'll just write you on there Dogs got to eat now, cat meows, "Me too" Got to wipe off my mascara, that my tears had dripped through Get coffee started, A small comfort I need A tiny nitch of energy that will get me to 9:30 Get in the shower, Pick out a dress, Get food in your belly... A nagging-subconscious request But the room is so quiet This couch is so safe No harm in this bathrobe Or pretend happy face All I hear is the ticking of the wall clock nearby It persists moving forward Passing seconds, without try Oh how will I make it to 3, 6, or 9? To one more day covered, completed, behind I try to remember what it felt like to see Your tired eyes peering over your coffee mug at me Your warm body keeping my cold feet alive Or your voice reassuring me that our day would be bright. Just shift into the sunlight, that shimmer of wa

A metal coil pierced into my heart the day I met you Such a small prick, I didn’t mind the tiny smidge of discomfort Still foreign and out of place, we pushed through compromises, sacrifices, and new environments. Your presence has deepened. Slowly, you have pierced into my right atrium chamber I barely noticed the transition My heart adapts, a normal flow of blood pushes past your densely twisted form Our existence intertwines Soft vulnerable tissue- So exposed You witness the secrets of my most important organ It doesn’t scare you away Instead, you pierce deeper The journey intrigues you Time passes- you only settle further into my beating heart This is not what I expected I watch your lethal grip solidify with such ease- I do not stop it Constant pressure pushes against you Insecurities, fears, trials, and stress My body tries to push you out It only seems to budge you in the opposite direction for a brief moment Then you enter my lower ventr

Lying quiet in the sun Grass beneath me Wind blows softly Doves in the distance cooing me over and over again They are trying to tell me something? I must keep listening A squirrel runs by effortlessly and quickly along a ½ inch fence He is graceful and peaceful Yet determined in his quest How does nature seem to run so flawlessly together? With such smooth interaction and flow? Even the trees seem to sway to a hidden rhythm, I want to know My mind works so differently. Where do I fit in this beautiful world around me? I’m humbled to see that I am it’s privileged visitor I want to take part in the many secrets and outlooks of nature I admit I feel unworthy to know. I must ask it permission. Will this state of meditation persuade mother nature to let me in for just a brief moment? Give me a gracious peak into its wisdom and beauty? I will stay and watch longer Tell me nature, Give me your secrets- for peace is what I’m after.

Serve me some Rolos with layered chocolate cake And that sweet fluffy frosting Aunt Jay used to make You see she always knew What to add to the dough That thick liquid cocoa Delicious to the soul I’ll never forget how easily she knew The perfect combinations of ingredients to use She swirled them together With perfection and ease I watched her pour smoothly That chocolate waterfall--such a tease Aunt Jay, how do you do it? Such love and tender care… Consistent delicacy in sweetness My tongue salivates with those fumes in the air I wish you were here Aunt Jay to cut me a slice That chocolate cake of yours is perfection--A tasty legacy, I pride.

By: Rosalinda Rumpsa 3/9/17 Rolling wave pounds into my reef Takes away bits and parts of me I give way to it- no thought or wonder Recurring force, returns with more pressure Once again, the wave comes back Leaving me be with foam and smooth sand Am I the giver? Is water the taker? We share the same space And somehow we recover Some days my rigidity rejects your rhythmic beating My foundation is sturdy, I’ll hold strong for the time being. And for all those times where your fracturing spray- explodes high and mighty, I’m a humbled stow-away. Your strength engulfs me I see your worth and view It’s consistent motion, unites me to you Such different elements Liquid, rough rock Both powerful and individual Yet, portraying a knot Tied to each other A tug-of-war, true Back and forth power struggle And still our existence pulls through.

Rosalinda Rumpsa 3/7/17 I measure my sadness day by day My inconsistent nature scares most away The guilt makes it worse A spiral of darkness begins- So dense and heavy, it’s spin can’t stop Im sorry Im not there for you You see, I’m barely standing, I am so weak Be patient- It's not personal This ugly I feel reveals my worst, so I hide away It's a weight that comes to me Like an unwelcome pest It latches and breaks me- an impossible test I must battle it alone I know you want to help me, Stay away, I can’t protect you The damage can spread quickly Let me heal, and then it will go away... but only temporarily Stand outside and wait. I’ll be back shortly. For now let me disappear. I must hide this ugly sight. I'm not feeling well today, my Demon and I must fight.