Love Compound

A metal coil pierced into my heart the day I met you
Such a small prick, I didn’t mind the tiny smidge of discomfort
Still foreign and out of place, we pushed through compromises, sacrifices, and new environments.
Your presence has deepened.
Slowly, you have pierced into my right atrium chamber
I barely noticed the transition
My heart adapts, a normal flow of blood pushes past your densely twisted form
Our existence intertwines
Soft vulnerable tissue- So exposed
You witness the secrets of my most important organ
It doesn’t scare you away
Instead, you pierce deeper
The journey intrigues you
Time passes- you only settle further into my beating heart
This is not what I expected
I watch your lethal grip solidify with such ease- I do not stop it
Constant pressure pushes against you
Insecurities, fears, trials, and stress
My body tries to push you out
It only seems to budge you in the opposite direction for a brief moment
Then you enter my lower ventricle chamber
My blood runs through you now
You are a part of me
Taking you out of my heart is no longer an option
For you have settled comfortably through multiple compartments within my heart
My arteries flow in and out of your complex partitions
A simple tug out can only leave me mangled, ripped, and ragged
Yet, for now--We are one
Each puncture is whole now
I have healed around you
Scar tissue embraces your metal coil like a home.
Your particular journey has formed a pattern into my heart that can only fit you
A strong and vulnerable compound we are.
You have the power to complete me or destroy me
This precious metal coiled heart...We function beautifully.


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